& maybe tomorrow you'll remember who i am
& if im lucky, you'll remember that once
i did matter.

September's Delight..

September's Delight
They're happy as (s)he's gonna be
Ecstatic even
Satisfied yet?
They comply & smile
Not a hint of denial
September's Delight

September's Delight
Cool air. A slight breeze
Musick to her ears
Symphony to the heart
To her soul, such a tease
Yet, her spirit is at ease.
September's Delight

September's Delight
But it also made her cry
When (s)he looked her in the eye
but couldnt explain to her why
his(er) heart needed space
feelin all outta place
& the pain; she could taste
September's Delight

September's Delight
Cool air. A slight breeze
Musick to his ears
Symphony to the heart
To his soul, such a tease
Yet, his spirit is at ease.
September's Delight

...

damn.
what a distraction you are.
i cant focus on anything around me.
can't get it outta my head!
its hard to concentrate while being tortured by vivid images of you.
& her.

When it Rains..

Baby, when it Rains..

I WANT YOU
Here.

Now.

Tomoro.

Always

I WANT YOU

Like Words.

Like Growth.

Like Truth.

Like Opportunity.

I WANT YOU

Against Time.

Against Fate,

and space,

and our beds too far away...

I WANT YOU

Like sweet, soft Memories.

Like detailed Stories,

your stories; tell them to me..

Baby, I WANT YOU

to want Me,

No. NEED Me
Yea...

Like Water.

Like Blood.

Like Musick.

I WANT YOU

To Hug me TIGHT.

To Kiss me LONG. PASSIONATE. STRONG. DEEP.

To Touch me GENTLEY.

To Fck me HARD. FAST. STRONG. DEEP.

I WANT YOU

More than LIFE itself

Baby, more than Icecream!

or desire

More than Laughter

or sugar..

More than....damn

Baby, I JUST WANT YOU

Here.
Now.
Tomoro.
Always

ilyAJM

Who's Theme?

& here we are,

Conversations again,

Reunited be the forces,

One carries from within.

See the world works,

In mysterious ways,

But nothings guaranteed,

Nowadays.

So, keep your standards

But let them bend

& take me for me

Against the trend.

Desire shall become,

The game to play,

As we allow the Musick of our hearts

Carry us away...

...

I've got a certain Lust for Life.

Yet, none of this would feel right Baby

If you weren't here by my side.

Thank You.

Its just not my thing..

I dont do ex Girlfriends...
Nope, not at all...

I dont trust her...
Nope, not at all...

I dont trust YOU with her...
Nope, not al all...

It's just not my thing...
Nope, not al all...

Im Happy.

My family is AMAZING. My boyfriend is THE BEST. eh, job could be better. But still I AM HAPPY. & it feels GREAT!
"Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. "

it just happened..

Shorty's holding on strong: effortlessly & unwillingly

He's got her heart in his hands & he doesn't even know that

He's killing her inside.

Her heart burns, bursts & bleeds

Every time he smiles at her
Every time he kisses her

Every time he hugs her or tell her that he misses her..

Every time he walks away

Every time he hangs up the phone

Every time he exits the room & leaves her all alone.

Shorty knows what's happening, but he doesn't have a clue

Her emotions have taken over & she doesn't know what to do..

you see, Shorty fell in love

Eyes wide..SHUT

So quickly yet blind

To realize what love will do to her

is beyond unkind..

one cannot help or control how they feel.

& one can only ignore their emotions for so long

before it begins to tear them up inside

one does not plan to fall so hard,, it just happens..

it just..

happened.

you're just runnin cross mah mind..

ugh. Shorty's in desperate need of a napp..=/
Which is type awkward because I barely did anything today?..
ehh, Maybe it's just the weather..
Rainy days make me soo sleepy..(yawn)

-currently bumpin: Melt my heart to stone (kickdrums rmx)- Adele ft big pooh


If only you knew what you were doing to me,
By your side at all times is where my body yearns to be,
For it is then, and only then, that I'm taken to Ecstacy.

As Long as you're Happy..

I know, I know, It has definitely been a while..& I sincerely do apologize..
The good thing is, i HAVE been writing, it was just finding the time to post that was so difficult.
Any who, enough talking!..
now, (she shouts) TO THE POEM!! -hehe-


||As Long as You're Happy..||
-Ty.
Dazed in the midst within thoughts of you,
Lost in confusion with no idea what to do.

Caught up in the fog created outside,
The negative thoughts my mind tries to override.

For some strange reason, I kind of believed it could happen,
He'd sweep me off my feet & I'd finally be happy,

& I'd finally find someone who understands.
I had hope in the possibility of him becoming my man.
Damn...

But I guess it was too good to be true,
I was right when I said I wasn't good enough for you.

My hopes were up & my heart was held high,
Then you let go, and for a moment I died...

But then I woke up and began to think.
I swallowed my anger & left my emotions to drink.

& soon I understood that selfishness isn't the key,
That worrying about only my emotions just isn't going to help me.

That very moment I realized I would make it through the rain,
For, as long as you're happy
I shall not complain...

||dedicated||

shorty's tired yoo..

& when its the last straw?
Then what?
When all that's left to hold us together is just one worn-out thin ass string,
what then?
Where do we go from here?
Do we..
a.) call it truce & decide to be friends?
or b.) Say fck it, turn our heads in opposite directions & go our separate ways?
UGH!!
yoo! Someone please tell me what happens now?
cuz Shorty can't digg the suspense..

"i was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again
& tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new..
What's broken is broken--
& i'd rather remember it as it was at it's best
than mend it and see the places for as long as i lived.."
-|| Margaret Mitchell ||

Sweet Misery..

"And I got Misery
Cause I know loving you's a sin
And I'll be on my knees
Praying that I don't give in
Now baby you and me
Never ever could have been
So I got misery
Because I'll love you till the end"
-Amel Larrieux

Nightmares..

The lights are out
& my surroundings are dark
But I am not afraid.
Tense, yes and subconsciously silent,
As the darkness acts as my shade.
The rest of the world acts as the Sun in this story,
Which has yet soon to fade
As the darkness comes to pursue its glory
& act as my everlasting aid.
But soon the darkness becomes outweighed
& my shade begins to fade,
As the sun decides to raid and invade
I begin to feel a bit betrayed
Because my life behind closed doors,
Has now been displayed..

To you. From Me

& i aint got ||SHiT|| to hide!

Yep, i was...||Tagged||

My BEAUTiFUL HomeGirl ||MERCEDES a.k.a. VANESSA|| tagged me.. =]
The rules: Write 16 things about yourself; tag however many people you want by leaving them a comment letting them know they've been tagged.
& i tag YOU, MARiE...

1. My ultimate favorite color of all time is BLACK..
I just find it to be so..mysterious and SEX.C. i also have a thing for the color purple..=]
2. I AM SOO BIG ON FAMILY.
(which is to be expected when your great grandmother from one side decided to have 22 children, in which they all had children, & there children had more children..=] & the other half of me is Native American, & OH BOY do they love to reproduce..LoL) But I love my family & i wouldnt change them for anything in the world..

3. If you havent noticed by now, ||MUSiCK|| is what I live for.
Everywhere i go, & everything i do, Musick is always somehow involved.
4. I have such a BIG heart.
Once i make friends, I have every intention to keep them, I dont like letting go.
I hate arguing with the people I love. It does nothing more than hurt me..
i'm the type of person who would rather see you happy, even if it doesn't benefit me in any way..
When you smile, I smile.. =]
5. I LOVE hands..
They tell stories.
6. I cant wait to finish school & start my life already!!
I want kids, & my house w| a dog & a fence! lol
7. I am not good at planning ahead..ever!
I just go with the flow. Living day by day..
8. I've never been that great at recieving compliments..
(i turn red, & get REALLY shy that i sometimes even forget to say "Thank You")
I guess i just dont see, what they see in me..
9. My iPod's name is RiLEY *
(i love her..)
10. I LOVE DEF POETRY..
11. Writing is my therapy..
I have every intention to have written atleast 7 stories before my life reaches its end..
12. I tend to laugh at the many preconceived assumptions people come up with about me.. *
I have heard them all...
In reality, I am honestly one of the few left of the dying species
of women that are actually just chill, layed back, & down to earth..
13. I am an observer..*
I take note of simple things, but often take
the time to look beyond a persons common characteristics..
14. I am idealistic.
but, Loyal to my values & to the people who are important to me.
15. They call me CURIOUS!! =]
Im quick to spot possiblities & can be catalystic
for implimenting so many ideas.
16. I seek to understand people.
I try as much as i possibly can to help others fulfill their potential.

yours truly..
..KiDO..

Love..

Love...
Such a Sweet Addiction...
It can make you feel so happy,
But 0nly for so long...
Then, after you're poisoned with this
Sweet but Dreadful Emotion...
Something always goes wrong...
And Babii,
That's why I was so afraid...

..il'dy..

"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."

Family..

& it's such a Beautiful thing.
||FAM[iLY] ||
We've shared diseases and toothpaste,
We've coveted one another's desserts,
played horrible tricks on each other,
disagreed & argued about almost everything,
"borrowed" each others money,
locked each other out of our rooms,
tattled on each other to get our way,
inflicted pain and kissed to heal it in the same instant.
My ||FAM[iLY] ||
Embarrassing, loving, full of laughter,
protecting, & of course always defending.
Understanding of the common thread that bound us all together.
Call it a clan,
call it a network,
call it a tribe,
Whatever you prefer,
This is My ||FAM[iLY] ||

ilyMarie..

Most of us don't really take the time
to recognize
the true value
of a friend
Until we take a closer look..

..TYiSHiA..

Yep..& another one.. =]

T is for the many Tears I've shed throughout the long 18 years that I've been alive.
For all of the tears I've wasted, and have but yet soon to waste..
Y is for the many times I've Yearned for something better.
I is for the Intensity of my glare when i stare into the eyes of another.
Only then will they have the opportunity to feel the intensity of my mind and my soul.
S is for the Sympathetic emotions locked away somewhere in my heart.
H is for this emotion people speak of, called Happiness.
The emotion I've been searching for and have but yet soon to find.
I is for Identify, for which I have finally learned to identify my true self.
and A..
A is for the Ability I know I have left inside of me, allowing me to greatly enhance my chances of achieving my future goals and aspirations.
...Tyishia...

Teasing Me..

To Tease
The act Of Touching, Emotinally And/or physically
Seducing another intentionally
Engadging hopes and beliefs of possibilities...
........
Teasing Me
To Emotiolnally And/or physically
Seduce her, Intentionally interfering with her thoughts,
causing sever cases of Nostalgia,
Generally turning her on leaving
Many fantasies in the midst
to stay as fantasies for
Eternity...

What's come over her?

& she jumped right in..
eyes wide...
Shut!
heart in hand..
ready and willing..
...
What's come over her?
...

...

When asked the infamous question:
"If you could change anything from your past, what would it be,"
her response was..thought out.. she said
"honestly, i wouldn't change a thing.
For, if it weren't for the incidents and events that occurred in my past,
I wouldn't be the same person i am today..."
She paused, and took a second to
reminisce.
Smart girl she is.
Using her expressions to hide her true feelings,
to conceal her true thoughts, and to reveal the complete opposite.
...
She unwillingly spent that night sleeplessly...
Being haunted by those memories she cannot erase.
Little does she know,
that if she learned to let go,
Nah, Scratch that!
Shorty ain't tryina hear that..
She's holding her past so tight,
so close to her heart,
Her arms are too full to embrace the present.
But she wouldn't have it any other way..
For it is all she knows.

So much for Valentine's Day...

Me..

...) MUSiCK is the key to my heart. It is a part of who I am.. What I live for.. Why I do the things I do...

...) I'm studying to become a high school English teacher for various reasons..

...)My iPod's name is RiLEY (i love her..) & my sidekick's name is KiDO (i love him too..) =]

...) I tend to laugh at the many preconceived assumptions people come up with about me.. I have heard them all... In reality, I am honestly one of the few left of the dying species of women that are actually just chill, layed back, & down to earth..

...) I do sing.. (BUT am extremely shy..)

...) I PROCRASTINATE OFTEN...

...) I am an observer..I take note of simple things, but often take the time to look beyond a persons common characteristics..

...) i get late night ice-cream cravings. Ask extremely stupid/weird questions.. Laugh at the stupidest things. Smile for absolutely no reason at all.. Daze off every once in a while.. & doodle on every piece of paper put in front of me..

...) I have dreams about one day finding the courage to preform my poetry aloud, in front of thousands of people.. Letting them in to my world, allowing them to share my pain & my happiness.

...) Depending on how comfortable i am in a specific environment, I can come off shy, energetic, quiet, talkative, friendly, and unfortunately even rude...

...) I LOVE the way he makes me smile...; ]
p.s. You definitely are trouble..

...) I try my best to find a positive side to almost everything.. In my heart I believe that everything does happen for a reason.. I am open minded for the most part, & try hard to look at things from as many perspectives as i possible can... I Love who I am.. I am proud of what I've become, and accept what I am not..

So People.. This is Me.. =]