Sweet Misery..

"And I got Misery
Cause I know loving you's a sin
And I'll be on my knees
Praying that I don't give in
Now baby you and me
Never ever could have been
So I got misery
Because I'll love you till the end"
-Amel Larrieux

Nightmares..

The lights are out
& my surroundings are dark
But I am not afraid.
Tense, yes and subconsciously silent,
As the darkness acts as my shade.
The rest of the world acts as the Sun in this story,
Which has yet soon to fade
As the darkness comes to pursue its glory
& act as my everlasting aid.
But soon the darkness becomes outweighed
& my shade begins to fade,
As the sun decides to raid and invade
I begin to feel a bit betrayed
Because my life behind closed doors,
Has now been displayed..

To you. From Me

& i aint got ||SHiT|| to hide!

Yep, i was...||Tagged||

My BEAUTiFUL HomeGirl ||MERCEDES a.k.a. VANESSA|| tagged me.. =]
The rules: Write 16 things about yourself; tag however many people you want by leaving them a comment letting them know they've been tagged.
& i tag YOU, MARiE...

1. My ultimate favorite color of all time is BLACK..
I just find it to be so..mysterious and SEX.C. i also have a thing for the color purple..=]
2. I AM SOO BIG ON FAMILY.
(which is to be expected when your great grandmother from one side decided to have 22 children, in which they all had children, & there children had more children..=] & the other half of me is Native American, & OH BOY do they love to reproduce..LoL) But I love my family & i wouldnt change them for anything in the world..

3. If you havent noticed by now, ||MUSiCK|| is what I live for.
Everywhere i go, & everything i do, Musick is always somehow involved.
4. I have such a BIG heart.
Once i make friends, I have every intention to keep them, I dont like letting go.
I hate arguing with the people I love. It does nothing more than hurt me..
i'm the type of person who would rather see you happy, even if it doesn't benefit me in any way..
When you smile, I smile.. =]
5. I LOVE hands..
They tell stories.
6. I cant wait to finish school & start my life already!!
I want kids, & my house w| a dog & a fence! lol
7. I am not good at planning ahead..ever!
I just go with the flow. Living day by day..
8. I've never been that great at recieving compliments..
(i turn red, & get REALLY shy that i sometimes even forget to say "Thank You")
I guess i just dont see, what they see in me..
9. My iPod's name is RiLEY *
(i love her..)
10. I LOVE DEF POETRY..
11. Writing is my therapy..
I have every intention to have written atleast 7 stories before my life reaches its end..
12. I tend to laugh at the many preconceived assumptions people come up with about me.. *
I have heard them all...
In reality, I am honestly one of the few left of the dying species
of women that are actually just chill, layed back, & down to earth..
13. I am an observer..*
I take note of simple things, but often take
the time to look beyond a persons common characteristics..
14. I am idealistic.
but, Loyal to my values & to the people who are important to me.
15. They call me CURIOUS!! =]
Im quick to spot possiblities & can be catalystic
for implimenting so many ideas.
16. I seek to understand people.
I try as much as i possibly can to help others fulfill their potential.

yours truly..
..KiDO..

Love..

Love...
Such a Sweet Addiction...
It can make you feel so happy,
But 0nly for so long...
Then, after you're poisoned with this
Sweet but Dreadful Emotion...
Something always goes wrong...
And Babii,
That's why I was so afraid...

..il'dy..

"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."

Family..

& it's such a Beautiful thing.
||FAM[iLY] ||
We've shared diseases and toothpaste,
We've coveted one another's desserts,
played horrible tricks on each other,
disagreed & argued about almost everything,
"borrowed" each others money,
locked each other out of our rooms,
tattled on each other to get our way,
inflicted pain and kissed to heal it in the same instant.
My ||FAM[iLY] ||
Embarrassing, loving, full of laughter,
protecting, & of course always defending.
Understanding of the common thread that bound us all together.
Call it a clan,
call it a network,
call it a tribe,
Whatever you prefer,
This is My ||FAM[iLY] ||

ilyMarie..

Most of us don't really take the time
to recognize
the true value
of a friend
Until we take a closer look..

..TYiSHiA..

Yep..& another one.. =]

T is for the many Tears I've shed throughout the long 18 years that I've been alive.
For all of the tears I've wasted, and have but yet soon to waste..
Y is for the many times I've Yearned for something better.
I is for the Intensity of my glare when i stare into the eyes of another.
Only then will they have the opportunity to feel the intensity of my mind and my soul.
S is for the Sympathetic emotions locked away somewhere in my heart.
H is for this emotion people speak of, called Happiness.
The emotion I've been searching for and have but yet soon to find.
I is for Identify, for which I have finally learned to identify my true self.
and A..
A is for the Ability I know I have left inside of me, allowing me to greatly enhance my chances of achieving my future goals and aspirations.
...Tyishia...

Teasing Me..

To Tease
The act Of Touching, Emotinally And/or physically
Seducing another intentionally
Engadging hopes and beliefs of possibilities...
........
Teasing Me
To Emotiolnally And/or physically
Seduce her, Intentionally interfering with her thoughts,
causing sever cases of Nostalgia,
Generally turning her on leaving
Many fantasies in the midst
to stay as fantasies for
Eternity...

What's come over her?

& she jumped right in..
eyes wide...
Shut!
heart in hand..
ready and willing..
...
What's come over her?
...

...

When asked the infamous question:
"If you could change anything from your past, what would it be,"
her response was..thought out.. she said
"honestly, i wouldn't change a thing.
For, if it weren't for the incidents and events that occurred in my past,
I wouldn't be the same person i am today..."
She paused, and took a second to
reminisce.
Smart girl she is.
Using her expressions to hide her true feelings,
to conceal her true thoughts, and to reveal the complete opposite.
...
She unwillingly spent that night sleeplessly...
Being haunted by those memories she cannot erase.
Little does she know,
that if she learned to let go,
Nah, Scratch that!
Shorty ain't tryina hear that..
She's holding her past so tight,
so close to her heart,
Her arms are too full to embrace the present.
But she wouldn't have it any other way..
For it is all she knows.

So much for Valentine's Day...

Me..

...) MUSiCK is the key to my heart. It is a part of who I am.. What I live for.. Why I do the things I do...

...) I'm studying to become a high school English teacher for various reasons..

...)My iPod's name is RiLEY (i love her..) & my sidekick's name is KiDO (i love him too..) =]

...) I tend to laugh at the many preconceived assumptions people come up with about me.. I have heard them all... In reality, I am honestly one of the few left of the dying species of women that are actually just chill, layed back, & down to earth..

...) I do sing.. (BUT am extremely shy..)

...) I PROCRASTINATE OFTEN...

...) I am an observer..I take note of simple things, but often take the time to look beyond a persons common characteristics..

...) i get late night ice-cream cravings. Ask extremely stupid/weird questions.. Laugh at the stupidest things. Smile for absolutely no reason at all.. Daze off every once in a while.. & doodle on every piece of paper put in front of me..

...) I have dreams about one day finding the courage to preform my poetry aloud, in front of thousands of people.. Letting them in to my world, allowing them to share my pain & my happiness.

...) Depending on how comfortable i am in a specific environment, I can come off shy, energetic, quiet, talkative, friendly, and unfortunately even rude...

...) I LOVE the way he makes me smile...; ]
p.s. You definitely are trouble..

...) I try my best to find a positive side to almost everything.. In my heart I believe that everything does happen for a reason.. I am open minded for the most part, & try hard to look at things from as many perspectives as i possible can... I Love who I am.. I am proud of what I've become, and accept what I am not..

So People.. This is Me.. =]